Time Flies

* Note: This post actually appeared in early January 2015. Due to a technical error the original post was accidentally removed. I am reposting it again here.

I don’t know why but yesterday I decided to re-visit this blog. My last post on this blog was in 2011… Gosh! 2011… That’s like four years ago!

Then I got to thinking, what the hell did I do in the past four years, where have I been, what have done, why didn’t I continue blogging.

If you’re reading this, please bear with me cause I’m really writing this for my own benefit.

So let’s start with 2010 and 2011 – a combination of a really bad and really good year for me:

• I lost my job.
• I got pregnant. Hurrah!
• Managed to get a great job in a cool agency while I was pregnant.
• Then I was diagnosed with molar pregnancy  and was in and out of so many hospitals seeing so many doctors that I literally lost count of the number of specialist I met and hospitals I went to.
• I gave birth to my eldest baby boy. Blessing.
• I had post pregnancy problems and had to go for emergency surgery two weeks after I gave birth. Post-surgery, my wound stitching opened up and I was going around with an open wound for two months and had to go to the hospital EVERYDAY to get the wound cleaned up by the doctor.
• I was also diagnosed with a GTD and had to take another two months off from work to go through mild chemotherapy.
• After two months the doctors said they’ve cured me but just in case I shouldn’t plan for a baby for at least a year to ensure that my body was stable.

Moving on to 2012 – generally an okay year but I was struggling with work and motherhood quite badly.

• Because I missed out a lot at work, I had a lot of catching up to do.
• I was also struggling as a new mom juggling with my full time job.
• Accidents happen but this was a good accident, I got pregnant with my second child. Since I was still under observation for my GTD, I had to go in and out of the hospital for check-ups quite often.
• I gave birth to my second son at the end of 2012 without any incidents and I was also officially cleared from my GTD diagnosis.

2013 and 2014 – Honestly I don’t know what happened in 2013 and 2014. I think I was just moving like a robot: wake up, get kids ready, send them to babysitter, work, pick the kids up, come back home, cook, clean, spend quality time with the family, sleep and repeat the process again the next day for the next two years...LOL.

I’ll openly admit that I am not a super mummy and I think after almost four years of being a mom, I’m just only getting the hand of handling multiple responsibilities. Believe me it’s still a struggle but I’m coping with the challenges at work and at home much better than when I first became a mom.

My kids are a bit bigger now and a bit more independent so I have a little bit of time to spare for myself. They are truly a blessing despite the problems that I went through.

So, I may not have achieved much or blogged much in the past four years but I am a proud mom of two boys now.

Last year I was able to pick up my reading habit more aggressively (thank you audible) and I also dabbled with blogging on another site; Family, Work & Play. The reading bit is coming along well but the blogging bit is neither here nor there.

I miss blogging at Ulat Buku in the City. Though I no longer live in the heart of the city as I did when I first started this blog, I feel that I can still relate to this blog site better than my new one. Maybe I’ll start blogging actively again on this blog, maybe. I don’t want to say I’ll do something and end up not doing it. My life is very much focused on family, work and me-time whenever I can slot this in. Blogging is not top priority but it’ll be nice to reconnect with the friends I’ve made through this blog.

Anyway, if you’ve read this post till the end, I’m sorry for the random rambling.

Point is- I miss blogging. I miss connecting with other book readers around the world. I hope I will find time to pick up blogging aggressively just like how I pick up the habit of reading again.

By the way, this is me now, a happy mommy.

Till next time,